My problem is gambling. I use it to wind down or when I am feeling sad or troubled. I was doing good, felt stable etc. my brother in law passed away. Buried him beside my late husband. I’ve been triggered since then and I went to gamble a few days ago and again today. Put myself back to poor lol frick. Trying again. Hopefully this feeling goes away soon. I need friends I think. I am a student far from home. Only have classmates but nobody to hang with after classes. I am not younger either and not into bars or parties. I have a different addiction. Makes me sad. Should have just went shopping lol ugh