That I’m becoming aware that I’m really good at lip service. That things I believe I don’t actually act out and that’s frustrating and irritating and 1 million other things that could push me into drinking just to hide from it again. I believe it I want it. I wanna do this And if it was literally just black-and-white pick up this set it down over there and then screw this bolt in and hammer this nail, it would be a hell of a lot easier.