The urge for people to understand. Ex.) when people say oh just have one or two. I don’t mean to get frustrated or angry with them because they simply don’t know what it’s like to have one or two that turns into three and four and so on, like a flip of a switch that makes me want to keep on going. Or the ones that say they don’t think i need to be completely sober, when they don’t know what it’s like to live in my mind and body all day, and to deal with my mental health, the way substances affect it deeply, i guess i myself just started to understand it so i can’t expect everyone else around me to.