Just checking in… Im having a good but a bit of a rougher day today. It’s just been long and draining for me, with some other bumps like rude coworkers and customers that kept being cruel for no reason or because they weren’t getting their way…I also found some alcohol stashed in my house that I honestly had forgotten about since I’ve gotten sober and I so badly wanted to drink it, but I also knew my sobriety was more important so I called my sponsor and ended up dumping it… which Im happy about but it was bittersweet it made me sad to watch it go down the drain at the same time that it was making me feel relieved…. It’s a mixed feelings situation since Im so early in my sobriety, but I’m working my first 3 steps like crazy, praying, and playing it thru for myself to see that I don’t wanna be where I used to be, and that’s where alcohol or self harm will take me. To a point of no return and guilt. I’ll hate myself for it after, and only love it for the moment… they are not my friend they’re my enemy and they’ll only hurt me and poison my hopes and dreams for my present and future… anyways thank you for listening/reading my vent, I just needed to let it out… hope you all are well🫶