A compliment that I’ve received lately is that I am very hardworking and dedicated to my work. That stuck with me because sometimes it’s not always clear whether others are really watching and paying attention to the good deeds you do instead of the negative. Like yes I make mistakes here and there but that’s not all me. I do try to do what’s right. There’s a part of me that really wants change and really wants to feel alive again instead of this constant empty feeling that I’ve been holding onto for a while. That I’ve been trying to ignore but constantly being in denial it’s still there. I will find myself again and I will learn to be happy again without a substance.