i need to forgive myself for allowing myself to get to a place where i was so reliant on weed despite the fact that i’ve grown up telling myself i’d be nothing like my mom. i didn’t care that my tolerance was so high i couldn’t even feel it anymore. i didn’t care about the fact that i could feel the mental and physical changes it was putting my body through. i didn’t care that i was failing in school and holding myself back. i had stopped caring about myself and everyone else around me entirely. i want to make smarter, healthier choices for myself and to respect my body again. i want to care again.