Made it to the three week mark and I felt things getting good. I cleaned my depression room of 7 months. Picked up new hobbies. Been swimming and hanging out with family. But I’ve known scince I was very young that feeling good doesn’t last long. Today I told my mom and sister that I know I’m gonna get bad again but I didn’t think it was gonna be this soon. It’s 1:45 am and I had just got off the phone with my friend and I kinda remembered that self harm is a coping mechanism and that I have access to blades. I looked across my room and went and grabbed them. At first I was only gonna do 2 but just like anyone with an addiction once you start you can’t stop. So here I am now writing this with my streak reset. Hopefully next time I wanna get clean I’ll stay clean for longer maybe even make it to a month.