I’ve only now started my sobriety from alcohol again. I’ve been sober before but always gave up because I didn’t believe I could be an alcoholic since I didn’t drink daily or even weekly. Sadly every time I do drink it gets out of hand and I lose control and black out, which causes me to do things i regret and makes me feel like a monster. This time I have to get my sh*t together so I don’t lose my relationship. How do I stop myself from believing I could be a normal drinker?