Right now I’m avoiding acknowledging that I will never have a drink again. I’m at two weeks sober and I have gotten to the point where I really miss drinking. I bought NA beer for the first time yesterday just to pretend a little bit. Honestly, the only thing getting me through Sober September is telling myself that it is temporary. That I just have to prove to myself that I can get through 30 days. On the other hand, I’ve already gained so much from being sober, and it’s only been two weeks. How can I give that up for a beverage? Oh well… I don’t have to decide right now. But it’s a frustrating tug of war just the same.