There is so much weighing on me from just getting out of jail and being forced to leave my home with my cat and dog I've had for 10 years I had to leave behind as well ,I'm trying to find a rehabilitation facility to go to and am currently staying at a crisis center, I have court coming up because CPS has filed a petition to terminate my rights with my daughter because a year ago I tried to kill myself at a friend's house while she was home safe with her dad but they came and took her from me anyways. I spiraled worse into addiction after that but also my son was just in a bad car crash where he fractured his spine in 2 places and now has to be medicated for sezuires and has to have further testing to find out why he is having sezuires now I try not to get in my head to much cause I just get depressed and sleep a lot or as much as I can ..it's been 15 days since I last used cocaine and it's so hard to not want to go use with everything that's happening in my life I'm do used to just numbing my mind and my feelings but I have to find other ways now to do so but anyways that's what's weighing me down these days I pray it all gets better sooner than later and I'm grateful to be clean and sober today