It’s been a month since I quit smoking and last saw my ex. I can feel my system being clear and I finally was able to let go of the resentment I was pulling back on myself. You can’t change until you let that go but hope can be double edged sword. I eat ginger everyday for energy and I work of trying to boost my spiritual practices. It boosts my energy so that I don’t feel like I’m waiting for something else to do that with a hard crash at the end. I’m better for it but time lasts so long. I know just can’t keep waiting for the next good moment and start thinking about every one as a mini good moment.