“wht are you avoiding feeling rn?” lately, I’ve been avoiding happiness. It’s really hard for me to feel/sit with it. growing up in an abusive household, I’m always waiting for the other shoe to drop, even tho I’m inna better living env. ive been doubting myself a lot recently because I have been feeling happy/hopeful/enlightened. it’s hard for me to accept tht as valid when my baseline is so low n I start thinking im going into a hypomanic ep / none of its “real”. but my mood is stable n im feeling good!