found out my friend died today. an old friend, lost touch. they think it was suicide. he was only 22. kindest soul i’ve ever met. friend to everyone. could sit at any lunch table in school and be welcome. jocks, art kids, weebs, stoners, even the pretty popular girls. he told me he had feelings for me in middle school, even though he knew i had a huge crush on someone else . he said he knew, but felt like a bad friend for lying to me. that i should decide if i still am comfortable being friends with him considering he had feelings for me. i told him i still love him and want to be friends. he never treated me any differently after that. i’ve never felt so human. rest in peace DJ. i’m 2 weeks sober and i’m going to keep it up. i am not going to kill myself.