I`m 3 months sober, but I was in long term recovery, against my will. I did want to stop, I just did not want to be locked up and treated like I`m worthless. I am finding it very difficult to have the motivation towards staying clean after all the abuse Ive endured at that facility. I also feel like this 3 months mean nothing as I had no free will. So in my mind I am clean for exactly a week. A week of freedom and a week of choosing!