My boyfriend and I got into a horrible fight and I drank and went to the bars. I just needed to get out of my head for a second. Not that it really helped now I’m further down in the confusion pit. He’s mad bc I asked four dudes if I could walk with them so I didn’t have to traverse under the highway alone as a girl and they did end up trying to get with me but I just wasn’t into it because that’s not who I am. I am a lot of things but disloyal is not one of them. He went off on me calling me a heinous vile slut sent me a chain of berating messages and said goodbye forever and that I’m a fuckin weirdo and that I’m a drunk embarrassment of our relationship and a whole bunch of other really lovely stuff. I’m sorry for the overshare but I’m blocked now and I don’t have a lot of people I can talk to about this or really much in general. Even if he calms down and texts me again I don’t think I can be with someone who gets so upset and tweaks like that. I know I wasn’t perfect last night and I said some things I should not have either and overshared to strangers about the relationship and let them talk shit about him and I agreed with them so I made mistakes too but I don’t think I deserved that reaction but I did not cheat on him and I even called out of the guys because he kept touching my waist. And nobody came home with me like my boyfriend/ex (?) is accusing me of.