Hey guys I’m js starting my journey being sober again after having CHS(ik one day isn’t hardly anything). I told myself it wasn’t the case and they just said that because I had weed in my system, but after picking up consistently using again I have found that I am not ok. I stopped for one day because I ran out and I was throwing up for 14 hours. I thought it was the stomach bug or flu since I work in the medical field, and after I used again and then didn’t have any for 24 hours I threw up again. That was my wake up call. I don’t want to be like this anymore but I don’t know how to stop. I am an addict and it’s embarrassing. My whole life has been full of addiction and I have no support from my family, whose only solution is to send me to a rehab but I have a lot of trauma from that. I hope I can do this and I am glad I found a space to share my feelings and people understand me. I don’t know if I can do this but I’m trying my best. Thank you for reading! I hope to beat this someday soon.