Yesterday I was looking at old photos and came across some stuff from last New Year’s Eve. We were drinking, coked up, having a great night. Nothing bad happened. Seeing the videos of us looking all pretty and cheering, I caught myself thinking, wow, I kinda miss it. I don’t know why I have to be so extreme about being sober. Then I thought, damn, it’s just been one month and you’re already thinking about drinking again. I was sooo sure and everything. Now I know that feelings can change.