I am better than i use to be with drinking. I dont go out every weekend but whenever i do, drugs are involved. I limit myself to going out and i dont want to give up drinking for good. However i do give myself breaks. My rule is to go out only once a month but i have got to learn to not take drugs while drinking. Its so hard, then i think i might have to pack up drinking altogether. I will lose my partner if i carry on taking drugs. I know i need to avoid certain people and a place. Im just as bad though when ive had a drink, like a demon takes over me but i want to still go out and enjoy myself drinking😪. Wish i never touch drugs the hold it has on you is unbearable