I have cocaine addiction. How do I not crave it because it makes me feel normal with my ADHD and helps me focus more. I’m not sure what to do I lost a relationship from it as well (not just that but it was one reason) I’m not sure what to do about it. I’m zero days sober and on it right now. The break up from my fiancee I’m spiraling because she moved on so quickly less than 2 weeks. I’m trying to go no contact but it’s hard because she’s still moving things out. The house is very lonely without her or the dog we got together. She’s now living with her new person and they’re “so in love” but she also used me for a place to stay and to be taken care over a year without her working and drained me. I deserve better I know, I’m not sure why I’m so caught up on her but I truly thought we were getting married and the life we’d plan.