That trying to be sober is hard , it’s a everyday battle , their are times that I want it badly and I fight the craving soo hard . Trying to stay positive most of the time . And also when it comes to gaining my trust back from partner it’s difficult, because I’ve broke that trust and did a lot of damage through this relationship and ive hurted her deeply to where whatever i say she wont believe it and call me a liar and it gets too the point where i start to get really angry and cause a big fight in front of daughter . And I don’t want to do that I hate that feeling of fighting . I don’t wanna loose them I love them with everything I have . And the fact that I’m trying my hardest and she doesn’t see it gets to me a lot . I just hope for the best in the future and hope I can continue to be sober for not just myself but for my family as well .