Day one. Again. I know many of you know the weight those 3 words carry. I'm a binge drinker. I would once a week or twice for awhile. Which then turned into 4-6 times a week. 4 beers turned to 10-12 at a time. Sometimes forcing myself to throw up before bed. Always black out. Don't remember convos, what I did. Showing up daily at a very high stress job, performing well and nobody noticing the struggle and loss of self I am hiding. I have two teen sons - I don't have time to always feel this shitty. Not to mention the weight gain which adds to feeling worse about myself. Just hoping something clicks. I do have naltrexone now. Scared to start.