Today is going to be a rough one for me. It’s my birthday and I always hate today. I feel like I’m not where I want to be/should be in my life. I hate the attention and even acknowledgement of my life. I’ve always relied on getting high to at least numb some of the pain. I almost stopped at a dispensary this morning. Pulled into the parking lot and everything. I know I don’t want to cave into the addition but I don’t know how else to make it through the day. Any advice would be greatly appreciated!