Hi im Mike, i been in treatment for 2 months trying to get my life back on track. I've been so lost for the past 10 years. I'm regaining my confidence, im finding love, peace, my higher power, friends and community, I grew up popular and spoiled and Then after school I ended up hurting my knee and lost scholarships for football and turned to drugs and alcohol for pain relief both physically and mentally. I ruined relationships with the most beautiful women and best ppl. I distanced myself from my true friends and family. I'm starting over now, I'm clean and sober finding my feelings and emotions that I buried from watching so many friends die from od and accidents. I'm definitely not used to having feelings but its a learning process. Sobriety is bringing out the best in me and bringing old emotions to the surface, my gf murder, my best friends death, my .parents, my brother im laws murder. It's a lot to deal with at times but im working thru it. Much love to ya all . Keep positive and im always open to talk if ever anybody needs someone.