i been thru many addictions like SH, alcohol, nicotine, weed n drugs im now a year clean from sh 3 months alcohol-free n now working on weed n drugs ive tried so many times over the years but when u start ts at a young age (11) you dont really know how to function without it as u grow older, u havent seen nor lived life like a normal person would. it's been really hard to stop especially cause if i dont have weed ill still have pills that my mum takes. it really is tempting it's like a never ending cycle. the longest ive been sober was 2 months right after i got out of jail at 17. then i relapsed thinking it'll only be a one time thing cause when uve been sober for a while u start forgetting how bad it is. if you're struggling with the same thing n u feel misunderstood there's this show called Euphoria i really recommend watching season 2 episode 4, when it's just Rue and Ali talking. he talks about addiction being a disease n his words left me speechless. the episode is called "You Who Cannot See, Think Of Those Who Can".