It has allowed me to look at it as not being 150 days sober as to getting a 150 days of life that I was so willing to allow to be gone. Can’t believe I shear but a 50/50 chance to live and a 50/50 chance that there would not be brain damage from the lack of oxygen? I have friends and family that were not as fortunate and it really has changed how I look at the days as given and not since my last use.