I hate feeling this way. It's the late night/ Early morning breakdowns that hit the hardest, I know other people don't see me this way but I've reduced myself down to a person who is weak and pathetic. It's like every time someone close to me sees what im going through and it's like im glass. They see me and they ignore it, and see the average person would be like "they won't help me its fine ill do it on my own" except I can't get help on my own, like I physically need the help of others. I am not capable of taking myself to the hospital for a mental evaluation or to go to psychiatric care. No matter how much I try to stress I need help or I could genuinely die, they tell me to basically deal with it and thug it out. I can't do that any longer. I hope soon I can receive the help I need and finally have someone listen to my cries for help. I'm deeply saddened that I can barely make 2 weeks self-harm free. But I tell myself just one more day. you should too. Thank you for reading ♡