3 days since I’ve used K, weed, and nicotine. Craving it. But staying strong. It’s up to me to do my best job at work, as a wife, and as mother. And none of those substances are beneficial to the version of me I want to become. I’m so happy for the future and the life I am creating, but the old me that still lives inside me misses being young and irresponsible. The old me mrs partying all the time and not having to worry about anything. But I know that that doesn’t really fulfill me, I know that that is not true happiness, but just a delusion. I have to feel happy without any outside substance. The old me that still lives inside me needs to die.