Day 1 again. Was doing ok tik went out to home group at church and being with people was hard but then topic of forgiveness came up and find that very hard when it’s thought about simplistically when me and my kids have experienced multiple traumas. I do forgive but it’s a process and sometimes have to go over things again and my son is inly just understanding some of it snd it’s having huge impact on his emotions and not been able to attend school for 7 months. I hadn’t taken my money I had to go home then out again and I wish I hadn’t as these triggers aren’t going to go away. Feeling frustrated and regretful and frightened