Today was a good day, for the most part. The kids helped me clean house today, I got lunch fixed. They let me take a fat ass nap then I went and picked up my son from my grandmas. After that, we went out to eat at Don Tequilas then to get ice cream at a new place to us called Handel’s Homemade Ice Cream, I even got some too, despite not really being a sweets person. By the time we got done with our ice cream it was perfect timing for us to go see the Minions and Monsters movie, it was a great time. We laughed, the kids did great for the most part as far as listening, and the food and ice cream was smack. I really enjoyed spending time with them without having to plan out a cigarette outside in between activities or having a drink at the Mexican place which would have led to me having a drink at the movie theaters and just not enjoying my time with them bc then I would have wanted to rush home afterwards so I could start drinking some more at the house. When I get antsy to drink and smoke like that, I get impatient and an attitude and become this person I absolutely despise. I did have to spend the last 3 hours treating their hair for lice and they’re all sleeping in here with me now but hey, honestly, I’m not even mad I had to do it. I can tell my attitude overall is starting to become less and I’m becoming more patient. I definitely am starting to have a sense that I have more control of myself vs. the substances having control of me and it feels great. I’ve been waiting a long time for this kind of peace and happiness and my only regret is that I didn’t do it sooner.