Resetting back to day one. This weekend got completely out of control. I ended up fighting with my boyfriend, broke a window in the process and I drank so much that I spent hours this morning getting up to vomit and feeling freezing hot. I’m really disappointed in myself and frustrated that alcohol still feels like something I can’t control. I know it’s just poison yet I still poison myself with a disgusting amount. But I’m here again, trying to make a change and commit to being sober. I’m going to keep trying until it finally sticks.