This weekend I was drinking after being sober for like 2 weeks straight. I went to a wedding and they had drinks. I was taken home by my husband cus I was drunk. I couldn’t stop. I started at 4pm and by 8pm I was passed out drunk at the his family’s wedding. I know it’s bad. But it gets worse. I then was dropped off and went to go get a bottle. I called up a friend acted like I wasn’t drunk and invited her over for a movie and drinks. I mean it was early on a Saturday night so why not. She was sober and we went to get a bottle. Well she has to leave cuz her baby needed her. Now I’m there by myself telling her we can save the bottle for next weekend. I kept drinking. And drunk calling my husband. My cousin in law and my sister in law. Saying some horrible things from what I could remember. I ruined the night for my husband which is typical of me when I’m drinking. He puts up with a lot. Well I told him I hated him and didn’t want to be with him. Which I didn’t mean I was just mad that he took me home early. I hurt him and it’s not good. I don’t want to hurt my family or him. And I know I have to completely stop drinking. I can’t just do one small drink. If I don’t stop I’ll loose everything I have. So here we go again. Day 3 sober and I’m not looking forward for the weekend. That’s when I really want to drink. But I will try and I will be back to post to keep myself accountable.