I need to forgive myself for not getting sober before my sister died, her death was sudden and I didn’t know she was going to but I wish I could have had more time with her, also going worse into addiction after she died. I know she loved me and would show me all the time she did and she never blamed me for trying to escape with addiction but I just wish I could have had more time with her and would have been sober for it. I’m very thankful to be sober now tho so I can relive memories of her with my other siblings. But I do need to forgive myself for not stopping even tho what happened I didn’t know was going to. She forgave me a lot of times for not staying sober and I know she is super proud of me now in the afterlife. I know that sounds like I shouldn’t forgive myself and it’s hard but I am really trying to for forgiving of myself.