I didn’t have enough time to study for an exam today, so I got a 58 on it. As a student that’s trying to get into Yale,every grade feels like life and death. I had an eye infection on top of trying to stay sober. The top off I’ve had to work five 12 hour shifts this week. My fiancé has broken up with me last night. I feel like the world is crumbling down around me and there’s nothing I can do about it. I don’t know why I even wanna stay sober anymore other than the fact that I wanna be smart and I feel like I can’t be if I smoke.