I gained 30 lbs! Doing meth! It’s crazy. Now that I’ve gotten most of my energy back, I do Pilates to start building my body back up. I had beaten myself so badly, I could barely make it up a flight of stairs without taking a break when I was using and I barely moved my body except for sex and to get high. Now I am able to make myself meals, clean the house, take care of my pets, and do all the fun things I used to do with my son before I relapsed. I have an appetite again which has made losing this weight more difficult bc I’m so used to having to force myself to eat. I don’t wake up wanting to die anymore, I’m not weak anymore , and my mind has finally cleared and I can b see how crazy my life has become and how things really were.