Today is my first day sober after relapsing over and over. I had tequila in my coffee before work and I looked at it and said to myself, “what the fuck are you doing?”… I took a sip and my body physically rejected it. I got insanely nauseous. I dumped out my coffee and got some real food. Feeling like this is the first step on a winding road and I’m ready for it, this time, more than I ever have been.