Fuck fuck fuck. It’s been 6 days and I am Now drunk. The fear I have is that alcohol always wins. I was positive that this was the time i would be sober for ever. All week i had no cravings. All week. Then the voice in my head said “fuuuuuuck it” - addiction is a horrible thing. I feel fucking great now as i am drunk, but come tomorrow, the guilt and shame will be back. Fuck this shit.