hey ppl sorry i haven’t been actively recently. 1 month 18 days off pills but damn have i been struggling w that one. i am truly in pain. long story short i think my rib is fucked up and can’t get in touch with my PCP. got x-rays tht look “normal” but ik something’s not right. i can feel and physically see something popping out every time i move. they said to limit movement that causes pain, ice, and tylenol. ive been doing that but also i have shit to do. i’ve been putting off going to the drs for weeks now n it was met with dismissal n feel so invalidated. i’m in so much pain and can’t for the life of me get comfortable. i get discharged from program nxt friday. kinda scared but also looking for outpatient support groups to find people like me. it’s one of those nights where it almost makes sense to give in just to take the edge off of this pain. but that’s j toxic justification on my end. change is hard. pain is hard. but staying sober is the hardest thing for me rn. i hope i can at least try to get more than 3hrs of sleep tn. i hope yall can too.