Today was rough. I have been doing so well and I’m reminded that healing is not linear. I had my first disclosure of childhood trauma this year and it’s really shaken me to see how much grief I was holding onto. In some ways, I think my substance use was hurting me, but psychedelics seemed to bring me joy that was almost therapeutic. It’s hard to listen to my providers say that I can’t take them when I feel it’s the only thing that really worked for me. Am I wrong for this?