in the Moment im Not in mental got Place to be honest and my cravings got soooo intense trough a big fight with my boyfriend be he thought I was using again (which I wasent) but since then he is Making so much Stress about Everything and packed all my stuff and I needed to leave out flat... since then my Motivation my cravings and Everything got soooo Bad that even now where I was allowed to get back Home I have so intense cravings and thing about getting heroin again I know it would destroy maybe Everything Forever and I really dont want to get back in that Dark Place of using again but I Think with my burnout at work and with all the Stress and fight we hat its the reason why my Head has such a Hard time to not Think about using again... My Birthday is on 21th and since weeks I was thinking about getting one last time Smoking again on it and now its extremly Hard for me to get that idea out of my Head even if its now nearly 2 months being sober...