First and foremost I get to enjoy the benefits of having the ability to be positive and grateful. Life is still going to be difficult but I’m now able to let myself feel my emotions, and I’m capable of coping without the urge, need or want to use drugs. I love the genuine happiness and peace I feel in my heart even though my life’s not perfect. I have God, who loves me and I know I am able to put faith in him that everything is going to work out exactly the way it’s supposed to. It’s nice to laugh and be present. I am so grateful that I have the chance to rebuild my relationships with my sister and my kids. I can be consistent again, and I can be there for my kids. One thing I missed so much during my active addiction was the time spent laughing and playing with my kids. I’m able to use my kids as my motivation to stay sober, but ultimately this time, I’m doing this for myself. When I was able to admit that I was powerless over drugs and that my life had become unmanageable, I felt a feeling of freedom. I no longer had to hide and live in denial. It’s a true miracle, that I’m still alive. I thought I knew the plans I had for my life, but God laughed because he knew he had so much more in store for me. I want to thank God for lifting the desire to use from me. I know that as long as I trust the process and continue to do the next right thing, everything in my life will start to improve. And for that I am GRATEFUL!