I feel raw asking this but does anyone have a history of blacking out and being unfaithful? I know there’s so much stigma around “people know what they are doing” or used it as an excuse to cheat but I blacked out and I hooked up with a friend who I find very unattractive and even when single going out never touched him when I was in my slut black out era. I don’t even know myself when I drink and I think I needed to hit this rock bottom as I have a history of black outs and wake up covered in bruises, cuts, bumps, etc. I’m ready to admit I struggle with alcohol, tell people I’m sober, and be a better mom, partner, and actually respect myself. I feel disgusting and want to crawl out of my skin but I can become the woman I’ve wanted to be for years. Day 5 sober.