Day 3 without nicotine and had 4 days last week but it was difficult not to grab for the sticks. I have 5 years of recovery from alcohol and I quit smoking 8 months into that but restarted a couple years ago and now I’m at it again. I have this old idea that I should be able to keep some sort of vice in order to deal with stress and times that I want to be somewhat rebellious but I’m engaged, getting married next year and hope to have a child. My new ideas. Why wait? Wait for what? A doctor to tell me I’m sick? I’m using it the same way I have other substances, when I’m uncomfortable I reach for something outside of myself rather than seek my spiritual life which is internal. I’m no longer making excuses! I’m powerless over nicotine too.