Being single is starting to get to me. That feminine companionship is something I desire more than I thought. It was my ex for a long time, then after our divorce in 2017 I still held onto the hope for something eventhough my drinking ran riot. Getting sober i realized how important it is to me, and that is not going to happen with my ex. I know that I need to work on myself before I am supposed to have anything outside, but man, a hug sure would be nice, ya know?