I've had the realization that, at 30 years old, I haven't been sober since I was 12. That's more than half of my life dealing with substance issues. From nicotine, weed, ecstasy, mushrooms, LSD, DMT, & alcohol. I used them all recreationally & far apart, but the alcohol really took over. the ease of accessibility is crazy. the social aspect, all of my friends drink so I do too. Then suddenly it turns into drinking before every social event, family get together, holiday, funeral, & blacking out & turning your life upside down. the other day I had an acquaintance tell me I needed to put the booze down because it was holding me back. That night, I had one cocktail, slept on it & the next morning I realized she was absolutely right. Alcohol no longer serves me. I'm tired of the cycle. I'm tired of the excuses. I'm tired of justifying. I'm done. My 30s will be focusing on growth & strength both physically and mentally.❤️