Today is one week sober and I am proud of myself but also now that it’s the weekend my cravings have gotten pretty bad. It was easier during the week with work but now staring at all the chores I have to do during my “relaxing” time is making me want to drink to get through it. But I know I need things to change and I never truly get things done when I’m drinking which is why the house is always a mess. I keep having to remind myself that if it was easy to not drink then I wouldn’t have to do this, but feeling how hard it is to not go for a drink after only a week shows that I truly do need to embrace this change. I want to be healthier and I have so much great things in life coming up to look forward to and now is the best time for me to get this under control so I can be truly present for those moments. I just keep reminding myself of all the consequences health and emotion wise that I experience when I drink and focus on gratitude that I won’t be experiencing that. I also need to focus on being more present and enjoying life while sober. Just thought it would be helpful to rant about how I’m feeling and maybe get some encouragement. It’s easy to convince myself that this is a self imposed rule and “the problem really isn’t that bad, it’s fine if I have a drink on a weekend” but I know where it leads and I know that I havnt been able to make these changes in my life for the better so I need to give this a serious effort before writing it off.