2nd week of program starting tmr n i wish they sent out the schedule a day before so ik what we’re getting into. ik thats my need for control and regardless its going to activate my PTSD but hey thats what im here to do and i have to show up for myself (past me / present me / FUTURE ME). i keep telling myself “rn this is the only way to move foward with ur life”. ive lived long enough carrying all this weight and taking responsibility for others actions to me or to others. ik its gonna be fckin hard and ill want to numb it out but also trying to calm my mind so i dont obsess over it. sometimes things are just out of our hands, and thats ok.