On day two of sobriety, millions of tries and fails. Hoping to get to 30 days and over all being a better mom and fiancé. I thought I was functioning but I found out last night my fiance and son saw right thru me I was hurting them. It killed me. It really killed me to know my family was worried I would if I didn’t stop end up not watching my kids and his friends and let something bad happen. But truth is I wasn’t being the mom I always have been so they were probably right. This guilt sucks. I just sit here at my work desk crying wondering how I got here…