Guys Im struggling today…Im sorry to get on here and vent but I’m not sure what else to do… I don’t wanna bother the people in my life, and on here you can choose whether you wanna pay attention to my post or not, in real life I feel like i burden people with my problems…I feel unworthy of sobriety and the good things in life… maybe Thats just the mood in my head talking but it’s making a lot of sense right now…. Just one drink would make me feel something better even if just for a little bit, but if I play it out itll lead me to regret guilt and bad decisions…but I don’t wanna play it out anymore, I wanna live in the moment and feel better even if just for a little bit…. Sometimes we all need a lil escape right? Why can’t that be mine? Then I think rationally, cuz would it really be just a little escape or would it be me getting on my sprees again and drinking all the time to prepare for things to just take the edge off quick, etc etc cuz I’d find any reason to drink…i know I can’t, but I know I want to…maybe I should be calling my sponsor, but I know she’s working, and so leads me back to the burden feeling…anyways needed to vent sorry guys just in my head today….