Trying to start being cutting back at least, but it’s hard. I told myself this month was going to be a no drinking month but so far hasn’t happened. But I don’t even want to be sober, I don’t drink daily I don’t get blackout when I do drink. It’s just I always want to drink but I hold myself back some days. But when I do drink it’s hard to not keep going. But I do want to be healthier I really want to loose weight and I know drinking many high sugar high calories drinks doesn’t help with that. So I’m trying to cut back a lot. My girlfriend wants me to cut back too she’s completely sober so she doesn’t like when I drink a lot. But it’s so hard with everything in life right now. I’m so unhappy with where I am in life I’m miserable in my living situation I don’t like my job it’s just so nice to have some drinks and not feel stressed or irritated constantly. I just don’t know how to deal with life without drinking. I don’t want to stop completely but I feel like that’s what’s wanted of me so I have to in order to please others. I don’t know what I’m looking for in this just debating I guess