So I was having a conversation to my boyfriend about rehab. He said I don’t need it. But I truly believe I do, I feel that I need to be forced into sobriety or I’m gonna just keep relapsing and yeah it’s only weed but also the weed is what’s destroying everything about me and I really really need off of it before I hurt myself which I’m not saying that as in I for sure will it’s just I’ve been having thoughts of committing but I just feel that my head isn’t in the right space and I just need to give it time but it’s never in my life gotten this bad mentally and he just isn’t me and he don’t understand how hard it is to quit a habit that you have had since you were 13 and he said that rehab won’t even accept me because it’s just weed so I was kinda petty and told him I would go do meth just to get in and yeah I know that’s a little crazy but if that’s what it takes to just get help I will